Well I recently found out that I might have to move to New Mexico! My dad can't find a job and he has friends there who can promise him work, and if he goes I more than likely will have to follow. This completely throws my college plans out the window, I've lived in the same place for over 13yrs and have never envisioned leaving, I have never wanted to leave, I LOVE PORTLAND!

Nothing is for sure yet, my dad just left to go check things out over there, but for sure we won't be able to keep up rent so we're going to have to leave the apartments soon.

This will be create a problem for my account too, next month we will be canceling our internet connection as we prepare to move so I probably won't be around for awhile.

I'm just going to be a nervous wreck until he gets back until then I can’t be sure what will happen. I'll try to keep contact if at all possible, I love you all!

Hello people I’m living a very uneventful life right now so this will be brief meaningless babble…ENJOY!

I think I’m finally beginning to re-cultivate my soul, which is ironic cause not too long ago I was doing intense yard work LOL. It’s probably some kind of, clearing the weeds of my soul to let the true self blossom, Buddhist metaphor thing. I’ve really been getting into meditation this summer it’s been helping me heal from my relationship and deal with recent unfortunate shortcomings (my dad and aunt recently lost their jobs)

I’ve been relaxing but still trying to stay as active as possible (we couldn’t pay for gym membership anymore), I’ve been trying to go biking every Tuesday and Thursday. We go from Oaks Park to the water font; that’s about 10 miles.

I’ve also been trying to get up at 6:00 every morning to follow along with a 30 min yoga program. Its hard getting up but the session is worth it, and I’ve come to find I need structure in my routine.

So yeah, between yard work, yoga and biking I’ve been staying pretty well sane for once in my life.

*exhales deeply* Finally! Thank God I'm Graduating, I never thought this day would come! I’m done with my relationship and done with school. I'm looking forward to a decent period of rest and relaxation and ART! I’m not sure what college I'll end up at but I don't even want to think about that right now. Just wanted to let everyone know I'm still here.
Peace out

Not much to say here just thought I'd update.
I just noticed last month was my one year anniversary of being on DA Honestly I thought I would have run out of inspiration and abandoned it by now, but I'm still around.
But yeah, the relationship thing isn't going too well. I won't bore you with the details but the theme of my recent submissions may give ya a clue to how I've been feeling with him.

Anyway, I digress, the holidays are upon us and I must say I'm looking forward to it. My dad's going to California again(how original)I'm thinkin a just staying here and takin a break from life for awhile.
Actually...
I havn't been very good this year so I won't be getting any presents. In retaliation I'm thinkin I'll just highjack Rudolph and fly to the Bahamas.

"On Rudolph!" LOL
Happy Holidays Deviants!

I got Lasik last month, it hurt like hell but now I am FREE! Woot loves to all!
It really only hurt for the first three hours and slight blurriness for the first week along with putting two sets of eye drops in four times a day and sleeping with goggles on so not to rub my eyes(arg sooo uncomfortable) But the point is I can SEE!!!!

I’m back in school now and the academic pressure of senior year is hitting me hard. Family stress isn’t letting up either. It’s been a year since my mother figure departed so hopefully (in the words of Counting Crows)” maybe this year will be better than the last.” But I recently found out that one of my only female cousins in Oregon is pregnant; her father being the abusive asshole I’ve been trying to avoid for the past two years. As much as I hate kids I want to be a part of my cuz’s life and help support her through this life changing event. So sooner rather than later I am going to have to see him again…. Needless to say I’m NOT looking forward to it.

I seem to have lost motivation for art, even beginning to second guess it as a life goal, but without it I have nothing! *sigh* I guess time will tell where my true passions lie.

On the flipside I do have some good news *GaspGood news!* I may be in the midst of forging a relationship…as in love...as in boyfriend, girlfriend. So yes, that has been my one candle in the dark you might say. Hopefully it’s light and warmth will guide me through the year.
Loves to all!